looking for a supporter..adderall abuser here.

You are in my prayers. Wishing you well. God bless you.

Well I know about prescriptions haven't taken adderall but I'm sure its no fun like pain killers trying to quit..search this site for others with similar stories and good luck on getting clean...you made a good first step coming here and admitting there's a problem.

Hi, I used adderall for 20 years, i couldn't imagine life without the drug. I'd freak out when I thought i lost it, and i would doctor shop till i found a doctor to give me my pills. I too was on 60 mgs. Some things I think you should know, - its very addictive. Schedule 2 drug, that has a high level for abuse. -its not recommended to be prescribed for a long time, but if you have adult add that seems impossible. - adderall can cause paranoia, delusions and psychosis that may be only treatable with hospitalization (had this happen before). It is also prescribed for treatment resistant depression, so thats why I felt so great whenever i took it, and wanted more. Its hard to quit, but I have quit, (but not due to a lack of trying), there are days (more like moments or minutes now), that I really desire the drug. I have to go to this site, and quittingadderall.com for support and a reminder that no matter how much i want to use this drug, its not safe and its not worth it. These sites and stories have been very helpful. Adderall helped me through college, but it cost me my job, because i was fixating on things. I have been trying to get off the drug for four years now, and have relapsed numerous times. I keep going back to it, because i did everything on it, I grew up on it, and off of it, i feel intimidated and alone, scared, insecure, depressed about the world and my circumstances. BUT! it has been getting better with time, and I am getting used to my new reality. I am so sorry that you have this addiction, and are working, and everything and have to deal with this now, but the earlier you deal with it, the better. I am have been off the drug for 3 and half months, due to a court order, a court ordered psychiatrist, and a medical team that is working with me to get me used to life, and back engaged with life without adderall and healthy. It has GONE this far, in my addiction. I could not do it on my own. I kept going back to the drug, after each hospitalization, knowing that I could not continue like this, but unable to deal with life without adderall. I would be on the drug right now, if it wasn't for the fact that I have some many people working with me, and I would be unable to get a new psychiatrist. I have tried to get adderall from my primary care physician, that didn't work, but i have tried, I am addicted, and when that didn't work, I wanted pain pills, and when that didn't work i want antidepressants. I didnt get anything, and i still feel that without adderall, life is strange and near impossible. So, if i were you, I would quit ASAP, check out quittingadderall.com, seek supportive friends, N.A., online groups, etc. and talk to your doctor about rehab, and your job about taking some time off. I thought i would be on adderall forever, nobody is, I had to quit sometime, and luckily I have only had four years of struggling before i finally got the help i needed. ALSO, when you are feeling like you need adderall, and can't live without it...go to these sites or type in forums adderall/amphetamine psychosis, and read the stories. There are lots of them. You'll want to quit before you freak out at work, or some place else....I wish you the best of luck, if you want my email address let me know, i'll even give you my phone number so u can call when ur really craving.

Thank you for responding back to me. Here I am again still in the same boat te vicious cycle of no change a steady silent chaos I can only go 1 week to week in a half without it and this has been going on for 4 years . Insane
I wrote this post and hope to talk to u soon

It's so crazy this roller coaster
For me when that week mark hits it's like my brain shuts off and I go in for the kill search for adderall no feelings no self control boom done . It sucks. It is an addiction there fore its a mind fuck but honestly it's not like I withdrawal all day and freak out and give up an take adderall. I just, do. I crave sobriety an I hate hate adderall but here I am somehow convinced its fine it's worth it my addiction is physical with anxiety at times but mainly mental rackg thoughts and all that but also in a level of no control shutting out and choosing adderall and not looking back.

I also keep this completely hidden im a fantastic bullshiter but it's coming to its braking point I can no longer hide my problem an fake it
I'm convinced I'll be ok
But hello it's been 4 5 years
Holy crap

I am finding myself talking myself back into using adderall or other stimulants for adhd, lately. I just feel i can't concentrate. I think that i need them to focus and get things done. And im thinking about going to med school, and if i do i know i'll need these pills to get through. BUT i will end up dependant on them, and I will have to work my life around finding a doctor who will prescribe them to me for the rest of my life. When I am off of them, I am just not the same person! The life that i establish and live everyday while on the drug, is not the same life that i am capable of living off the drug. I hope this makes sense...If you could...do some research and see if people can take these medications for the rest of their life.

Def makes sense . I don't no how this shit is legal it robs us of our capabilities talents life everything. It is possible to go to school work your ass off and stay motivated without a pill a little pill that will help you focus but the price you pay is not worth it it will feel much better incredibly better to accomplish things sober the real you not you on stimulants. If you have been off if it than look at it as a blessing and don't go back it will only lead to more poll popping. Sleep
Pills to sleep Xanax for the anxiety and so forth

Didn't you say u wound up in hospital from adderall induced psycosis??